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Celebrate LOVE
What a surprising weekend, despite my veryyyyy unfortunate weekend of being sick, I am feeling A LOT better and A WHOLE LOT MORE because I am feeling so much happy vibes from my papa and my friends!!
Truly caught me off guard d(^__^)b
I just want to sprinkle colorful glitter into the air and wear my most flowy dress and dance in the winnndddd.
-sigh-
This is just... wonderful :')
It seems as though I can slowly start believing in HAPPINESS & LOVE all over again.
-noms- (>_^)
I love you and you! You deserve every bit of happiness and I am glad to see your turn in life being a beautiful one. Thank you for letting me see your journey and thank you for being a part of my life!
<3 SARANGHAE <3
Tiff
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Blog's New Song!
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Sicky Tokki!
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Tokki's B.E.G.O (Bunny Ears Go Up!) Sept '13
Welcome again to my B.E.G.O post for September '13!
Hi! Hi! Hi! These are songs that I've been listening to on the regular this month. Enjoy!
Owl City ft Yuna - Shine Your Way
Movie was awesome and I love the lyrics to this song. Makes me warm, fuzzy and happy!
Henry - Trap
Just because I'm doing a dance class and we are doing a choreography to this song (^_^)
Astrid - Tentang Rasa
The emotions and lyrics that this song lets out are beautiful. Just beautiful!
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Hysteric
YEAHS! Totally what I feel about LOVE!
Chris Malinchak - So Good to Me
I love the instrumentals used here and such a chill House number. LOVES IT.
HAIM (Duke Dumont Remix) - Falling
Hear the build up and momentum of each instrumental and beat that comes together!
TRULY SPLENDID I CAN FLY!
BBMAK - Back Here
AHH TOKKI GOES OL' SKOOL with this last one! Call me sappy but it's a good song!
x,
Tiff
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Thank you for the love
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Tokki's Life List Post (TLLP): Scaredy Usagi
I'm supposed to have an update on Borealis, but I have a lot of other things to post.
Herewith, I will talk about the Teruha Suspension Bridge~!
-GASP-
Ah!
Why I speak so passionately about conquering to complete this mission is because of that:
I did not complete the walk from one end to the other.
I came across this bridge when I was 11, I had a foster Japanese family who brought me out here in Miyazaki. It is located around beautiful, cascades of mountain all around in Aya Town in Kyushu's Miyazaki Prefecture.
I have the biggest fear for heights and yes, the bridge is placed ALL THE WAY UP ON A MOUNTAIN and I was just this 11 year old Tokki who was like (o_O) "You really want me to cross that bridge, Otosan?"
I didn't want to disappoint my foster family, but it was hard to tell them my fear, due to language barrier. My basic knowledge of the language was kind of fluent then, cos I was sent to a language crash course before my departure there. I would always carry a dictionary with me and I have always loved the way we communicated. They taught me a lot of things even without knowing a lot of words to explain.
Also, side note: I lost all contacts with my foster family, they're the Suzuki family but there are so many Suzuki families in Miyazaki alone (-_-); Plus, I have always keep moving to different places so very often and keep losing a lot of my contact books. So, yes, sad story! (._. );
SO ANYWAYS,
To get to the Teruha Suspension Bridge, you'd need to drive up on winding roads to get to the top, when I first got out of the car, winds were ridiculously strong and air was chilly.
The entrance looks decent and it may not look scary to a lot of people. And I agree, at first look, it wasn't scary at all!
Not until I took the first step to walk on the bridge, it was so high up and steel caged floors were see-through, I could see what was underneath me and I remember how afraid I was! Side note: That's not my foot.
See, it's all the way up there and I hope now that I'm older, it won't look and feel so scary anymore; I hope that I have overcome my fears in order for me to go back to the countryside of Miyazaki and do something to make my 11 year old Tokki inside feel accomplished. So, I could feel peaceful.
Now, the only issue is for me to save a whole LOT of funds to complete this mission. The currency rates are so different and this might take me years to fulfil this mission (-__-);
I should probably open up an account to save funds solely for this mission, so I could cross it off of my Tokki's Life List!
And what's at the bottom of the mountains are majestic rivers that look like scenes taken from anime movies. I remember the Suzuki family brought me to a riverside and there was a long wooden slide where an itamae would roll down streams of fresh, homemade soba for us to catch with our chopsticks, we would dunk the soba into a cup of chilled savory broth for us to slurp up fast, and what's leftover will flow down the river that the slide is connected to.
IT'S SO COOL, I want to go and nommmmmmmmmm XD
Ah, please make this mission possible and make this an easy one for me.
Thank you (*^_^*)//
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What I've always ever known
When my little hands and little feet first got out into the world. I had with me four big hands and four big feet that became a shelter of protection. From a fetus, to a baby and to a toddler, whenever there was every cry and every laugh, it has brought to their attention.
When our little and big hands were playing in the wind as we rode down the days away, from every city, to every town, to every place that we would stay. Nothing would weaken and make these smiles frown. Nothing would mumble out the voices that laugh.
What I've always known, from up and down many hills, I've always seen those familiar faces where nothing would faze them. Nothing would disturb the peace that was in us.
Now that peace has been shaken off, trembled.. like a meteor has landed down our shoreline; where water meets the land, where balance is our peace, but, in between.. that balance has been hit and now nothing is complete.
These years have gone by and I have always asked myself why.
Those four big hands and four big feet. What I've always known to be the example of what true love is.
But every example that I've known has slowly made me cease to believe nowadays and it keeps trying to slowly burn the passion away.
I see it in movies and I see no wrongs, but I wonder now is there an untold song?
The example of love I feel in myself has been my strength..
"So, give me a reason to believe!" I tell myself time and time again.
Set some examples to let me out of this grief.
If it wasn't for 32 years ago where those four big hands and four big feet got married, I wouldn't be here to find my own definition of 'complete'.
x,
Tiff
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Taxi thought
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Warm, Fuzzy Greetings
In the corner of a terminal,
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Daydream
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Sunflower field
xo,
Tiff
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In this bubble
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Tokki goes La la la~
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Misty Skies
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Tokki needs rest!
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Bouncey Tokki!
A Tokki tried the free trial for the Hip-hop dance class @ Dance Pot.
The first thing I entered the studio, I was greeted by a lovely girl, and then, one by one, everybody who turned up was friendly and bubbly!
The class was fun and the students were into the dance steps shown and it was cute to see that. I got a good sweat going on during the session too.
BUT!
I'm feeling I'll be choosing the K-pop dance class cos we are already working on a choreograph for a song. So, it's K-POP that Tokki is choosing!
YAH! DAEBAKKKKK!
I appreciated everybody who tried to convince me to join their Hip-hop class, you are all so cute and kawaii. I don't want to disappoint you for not being there, but we will definitely bump into each other in the studio yah!
Thank you for the fun time!
From two..
Then, there were six!
xo,
Tiff
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Tokki's body is so SORE. Can she make it to her Thursday's dance class?
I am feeling REJUVENATED!
I can't wait for this whole week to end, so I can go back to normal work mode and back to my daily life routine. It's been extremely exhausting and I've learned a lot of things about work and life these past 2 weeks. Currently, I am dealing with people who won't give up on something even when the answer is "No". It's so bizarre to me how some guys can easily be so personal with me and tell the world about wanting to be bring me out, wanting to bring me to a beach trip, claiming my dad as their father in law and saying "I love you" to me all within 2 days! SO FUNNY! I don't have time for boys. Sorry yahhhh!
Here's me last week!
I was pondering in my room by myself while I was gearing up for Tokki's Workout Day and told myself that it has become such a routine of following Shaun T's Workout DVDs and doing light weights!
I figured to do something that is totally out of my comfort zone, that it's about time to be adventurous!
So, that moment in itself, I decided to be spontaneous and phoned up a dance studio, called, Dance Pot. I asked for schedules and fees, was delighted that they had an opening on that very day and I was happy that the flow of things happened momentarily.
They have all types of dance genres that are available for everybody interested to do 1-2 hours of dancing. I decided that K-pop and Hip-hop might have been two of the genres that I would like to enrol myself in. I did the trial for K-pop and loved it! (^_^)b It's so fun and the instructor is so patient, precise on showing steps and just a fun, easygoing person to get along with!
This is Tokki before dance class. I was excited and ready to head out!
Apparently, the dance floor of the studio is made out of different layers of materials to make it safe for students to practice. So, tumbling, jumping and bouncing around in full force will be okay for us! So, that's a GOOD thing, yes!? XD
Felt very lucky to be here and the girls were shy at first, but warmed up easily to me after a while, some were still so shy but then again, people have their own time to open up!
Felt all tired and sweaty after the dance class!
We did a song from HENRY called 'Trap'.
Here's a Youtube video of the song (^__^)b
I have a free trial of a Hip-hop dance class this Thursday, so I HOPE to make it out to that class after work. But I'm totally feeling the K-pop dance routine already. So, we shall see which genre I've decided on by this end of the week!
Tokki got all sweaty and happy from the rush of endorphins flowing around XP #KYA!?
My papa and brothers are back from SG after a long time being out there, so I treated them some ice cream sundaes from Baskin Robbins. I hope they loved it.
Until the next post, okay? Also, not forgetting tomorrow is a certain someone's birthday. Aw :') That will be a whole 'nother post, might have to be a belated birthday post though..but better late than NEVER, right?! I have this whole busy week to handle, but I will be sure to keep everybody in the loop of things!
xo,
Tiff
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Makes me LAUGH all the time! SHO CUTEEE!
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Guess who's a DANCING bunny?
So, I've enrolled myself in a dance class (probably some classes too!)
Because I want to make my Tokki's Workout Days fun, I decided "Why not?" join a dance class since it's fun and I am dancing to happy music!
The dance genres I chose are K-pop and Hip hop. I am going for my first K-pop dance class today and I MIGHTTTTT enrol myself into the Hiphop class too, but I'd have to give some thoughts on it before I do!
So yayyyy! I will be a dancing Tokki!
Ahhh, I cannot wait for Running Man next week cos Big Bang is their guest idols!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! -hands on face-
Anyways! Gotta get ready for my dance class, yayyyy.
Fighting yahhhhh!
(^_^)v
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Thoughts before bedtime
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Awkward Work Events
I wish for this week and coming week to fly by faster. I am so sleep deprived and just the thought of laying down sounds like a luxury to me now.
What I would do just to sit down and stay in deep solitude, or, laying down and just simply recuperate!
I need high and happy energies.
Also, what makes this work event even more tiring is when there are these two boys who won't give up flirting even knowing I'm not interested. They thought I looked 19, it was nice to hear that but it is real tiring when they won't give up.
One is 23 and the other is 20, at first, they said they were 25 and 29, but it was easy for me to see that they weren't cos they look young! Not that age is a problem, but the teases and how they approached conversations keep being ridiculous.
Oh, help me, somebody (._. );
Don't want!
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About Feelings
Menuju hatimu
Beri aku jalan yang indah
Izinkan ku lepas penatku
‘tuk sejenak lelap di bahumu
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya
Membuatku takut kehilangan
Ku titipkan cahaya terang
Tak padam di dera goda dan masa
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya
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Translation from Bahasa Indonesia to English (I am trying the best I can okay!):
I have gotten lost
Heading towards your heart
Present to me a beautiful path
Allow me to release my restlessness
For a moment to nap on your shoulder
Could we both be together forever?
Unite our emotions as one, just you and I
Hoping for our eternal, everlasting love
Will go forever on until the end of time
About a love that comes by patiently
Making me so afraid of losing it
I guard our light that is so very bright
Never be dimmed down by pain, teases and time
Could we both be together forever?
Unite our emotions as one, just you and I
Hoping for our eternal, everlasting love
Will go forever on until the end of time (x3)
xo,
Tiff
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Life List!
When I was younger, I would always cut out random pictures and words from magazines and random printouts that I would find useful to paste on the headboard of my bed. There would be all kinds of colorful pictures and words that kept me feeling hopeful towards every single day.
I would never stop doing that, anything that filled me up with great energy, I would want it on my headboard. At times, my big brother would get mad at me for cutting out pictures from our family album, which I know are of sentimental value, but I was young then, so I'm sure some of those sneaky Tokki ways have been forgiven.
As I grew older, I stopped taking such notice on these things, it seemed like my whole being wandered into a different dimension and my mind drifted away into a limbo state.
Such an experience did not mean I wasn't living, I was indeed living then and I still am, but these are the phases in life that I had to go through and I still do go through them.. I still let myself wander off into different places my heart feels like going from time to time.. to simply reflect on an aspect of my life one by one.
It gets tiring to over think and over analyze a lot of things. So what better way can I do but to keep telling myself that clearing out my conscience and wiping the slate clean are what's best for me.
I have to keep my focus on things that make Tokki a happy bunny.
And slowly yet surely, I am retracing back my steps for my mind to remember how it was like when I was younger, what truly made me feel like ME.
So, I regathered a lot of things that would make me remember the feeling of being grateful and hopeful. Not to expect and not to over attach on to things. Simply take everything with a pinch of salt.
I'm always on this journey and I've yet to find that state of finding myself to be peaceful, because it's no denying that as much as I want to push through every obstacle, my mind is still so bothered by many things coming my way. I know for a fact that I control myself, it's only me who can choose to feel negative or positive, but that's the thing. I'm this girl..this Tokki..
Then again, being human, it's okay to not be perfect. It's okay to not be able to master and train ourselves to not find THE ULTIMATE peace and balance. Even monks and nuns take years to master in depth to get themselves fully into it, and some still struggle, cos, let's face it, we are all humans.
I wish everything is easier done than said. But that's reality to me now.
This concludes to why I have a renewed Life List since last year and I am happier to see so many things crossed off from it. I am also feeling and sensing new realistic goals to be added on to there. I just want to be my way of being this BEING and continue living so I can strike off as many things as I can on my Life List!
Eeks.
Also, reading 'Don't Sweat the Small Stuff' by Richard Carlson does help! I'll definitely talk more on what I've learned from reading it when I have more time to get myself into a blog post dedicated to it.
I hope everybody else is in their highest most happiest spirit and are all well yahh!
Fighting!
xo,
Tiff
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